Problem Solving

My body is telling me something.  I have woken up between 5:30-6:00am for the last 5 days (I usually get up at 7) with an upset stomach.  I take a low dose SSRI daily to manage anxiety, but every once in awhile something stresses me so much that I get a miserable flare up.  The early waking and upset stomach are some classic signs for me, and they are usually accompanied by circling thoughts of worry.  This time (so far) I don't have the worried thoughts, so it is completely clear to me the root source of my anxiety, all I know is that my body is telling me I'm wound up tight.

It's not really surprising that someone who suffers from anxiety would have a particularly hard time with it while TTC.  People who don't have anxiety share a lot of "what ifs" related to process and outcome.  I am questioning whether I will produce enough healthy follicles?  What if I produce too many and get hyperstimulated?  What if I don't get pregnant?  In my 5th and 6th IUI cycles I felt like I knew it would take IVF, and I guess I expected that would work for us.  Now that we're here, about to try IVF I'm not as confident.

I know it is best to be optimistic and I think I need inspiration so I'm rethinking my plan to only follow TTC blogs.  There are so many blogs out there I had decided to focus on building community with people in the same place as me. While that is helpful, I've only been following TTC blogs for about 6 weeks and so far no one has gotten the BFP.  Perhaps I should also follow a couple people who have had recent success with IVF.  So, who should I read up on and follow?